R.I.P PENNY! UNCONDITIONAL LOVE IS HARD TO FIND!

Meg very, extremely sad here!
I don't want the new members of this site to think it is a bitch-fest or a Debbie Downer Convention. It's not, I swear-when it rains it pours!
I am writing this because I know that we are passionate about glosses and creams AND our pets. Pets? please. Our family members that love us and bond with us and when the chips are down are here. Someone once said "Every time I come home I am The Beatles! My dogs freak out and are so happy to see me. I am a Beatle every time I walk through my front door."
Today my head groupie permanently exited stage left.
We were not suppose to end up together. I volunteered for a dog rescue organization as a "foster mom." I would take in abused dogs and rehabilitate them until they learned people were good and they were able to be placed in loving homes.
Penny came to me as a "foster dog." Some mofo kicked in her ribs and beat the holy Hell out of her and I was suppose to teach her people were "Good". I was suppose to teach her to trust and not try to attack anyone that came near her. I am a Foster Dog Mother-I am not Jesus Christ. I tried very hard to teach Penny that people are good. Penny would dog-flip me off and say in her dog way "People suck-you're decent enough-I'll just live here."
I gave up on finding Penny a family. She came from a hurt, dark and abused place and she found her "family" with me.
Over the years the bond deepens and I can't imagine Penny not in my life. Divorced and have to leave a hillside home for an apartment? Yup, Penny came with and made me feel like whether we were in a refrigerator box or Bel Air mansion we'd be just fine. We had each other. Bestfriend dies? Yup, Penny knew I was in trouble and slept next to me for the duration. The appreciation a rescued dog shows is unparalleled. THEY KNOW!!
I rescued Penny (or did she rescue me?) 7 years ago. She was around 7 years old at the time.
Today at 4:48 I sent Penny into the next phase of life. I had to end hers. She was confused, blind and deaf-had three teeth left and even tried to re-buff my affection. I wasn't sure if I should-I prayed as I drove through the McDonald's drive-thru to get her favorite cheese burgers without the buns.
God answered my question when I got back to the apartment and I could not even interest her in her favorite indulgent treat. I knew it was time to go.
Could I have kept her alive? Yes. Would she have wanted me too? I don't think so. I tried to show her the respect that she had (for the most part-I never pissed her off or she'd piss and tell me where to go.) for me. I didn't want to be there for the final injection but I held her during it. I owed her that.
Thank-you for loving me Penny. Thank-you for letting me know everything would be OK. Please know that when my time comes I wish someone would love me as much as I loved you and know when to "pull the plug." Please forgive me because it is with a very heavy heart and I miss you already. I was just trying to be the person that you think I am. Compassionate.
If you are thinking of a family dog I cannot stress enough how much a rescue animal will appreciate you and your heart and home.
Goodbye Penny. I hope to see you again. I hope you know how much I loved you. I loved you with all of my heart and soul. I was very proud of you. You had 3 teeth, were 99% blind and deaf and still fought off the vet. You went out with a bang! You fought til the end.
I will love you forever! Please say a prayer for my Penny! I know all Dogs Go To Heavrn but I just want to make sure she gets right in. I really really appreciate it.
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I feel your pain, 2 weeks ago my sister had to have her dog put to sleep. He had had numerous surgeries and treatments for a slipped disc, which is not uncommon with basset hounds, but very difficult to fix. It wasn't a question of money, bc they spent over 15,000 in the course of 8 months, trying to get the disc fixed, but it went out again, and the vet said if it were his dog, he would have him put to sleep, rather than make him endure the pain of another surgery and rehab, with very little chance of improvement. So that's what they did, my brother in law returned from the vets without him, and even though I knew it was the likely outcome, it hit me so hard, it was just like losing a human family member. So I will say a prayer to St. Francis (the patron saint of animals) for Penny, and I am glad you realize that you did the right thing, the thing that Penny could not do for herself and trusted you to do for her. She gave you a lot of love, and you repaid that by making sure she did not suffer any more than she had to. It's a very difficult thing to do, but the right thing to do. And I would also like to say, bless you for rescuing a dog, my best friend has 4 dogs, all obtained when she went to the shelter and asked what dogs were slated to be put down, and each time, she saved one. And each time, they proved to be amazing pets, even the 2 Pit Bulls that she was told would not be able to get along with other animals. The oldest one is going to be 18 next month, and they got him when he was 2, and had been found after a group of kids were caught stoning him. So for anyone who is considering adopting a pet, rescuing one from the shelter is a truly great thing to do, and you will be rewarded for it with your pet's undying love and loyalty.
Hi Meg, My heart goes out to you. I also lost a dog just last weekend that I adopted from the pound. Her name was Ginger. Unfortunately, I lost her within 24 hours of adopting her. She was very sick and there was nothing the vet could do for her. (I saw her at the pound and fell in love with her, but had to wait until she was available. I visited her every day while waiting for the "waiting period" to end). I started a facebook page to help create positive awareness for "pound animals," and to create awareness about animal safety issues. Please become our friend at "Ginger and Friends." I welcome any comments or suggestions you might have!My heart goes out to you. I will say a prayer for both our precious babies, Penny and Ginger♥
Debi♥
I am so sorry for your loss, Meg. Penny sounds like a great friend, and, I am sure she is in a happier place, crossing the Rainbow Bridge, to frolic and play again, and look down on you and smile. She will probably show up sometime, just to let you know she is okay. Blessings! And to others who have lost a pet, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I lost my beloved Trixie Belle last summer, almost a year now and I still miss her all the time. Sometimes she appears - like she will walk in the room and meow her distinctive little meow.
Aww, I'm so sad for you. Penny seemed like an amazing companion for you. I've never had a pet, but I understand that the love and affection and adoration a pet can offer is remarkable. RIP Penny.
Farrah, MJ .... Dame Penny is the saddest of them all. I remember first meeting Penny. She was in a pink dress and walked all around the house, twice, before she decided to jump on the couch and settle in. That's when I nicknamed her Dame Penny (she was very Dame Judi Dench like). I will miss her following me around in the kitchen in the mornings and doing her crazy dance when she went out for walks. Even though she could have gone on longer, no one knew better then Dame that you don't leave the party at the end, instead you leave while it's still hot. RIP Dame.
Oh, dear little Penny. I can imagine her little three-tooth face. I am so sorry your baby couldn't last forever, but remember the joy she brought you every day you had her. I miss all the babies I have lost and I will never get over losing any of them. I hurt for you. There is a time when we have to let them go with dignity, in comfort and in peace. She knows you loved her until her final breath. That's what matters the most, she knew you adored her. All dogs should be so fortunate.
As the "mother" of a nine year old Great Dane, I can feel your pain. I got my dog (REX) when he was one and I was his third owner. His first owner lived in an apartment. Rex now goes to the chiropractor once a week and gets acupuncture once a month to help with his back and joint pain. I never imagined that I would be consulting eastern medicine for my dog. But, you will try anything for a beloved family member. I know when the time comes that he no longer wants to eat and cannot get up I will be facing the same heartbreak you are.Be proud of the wonderful adoptive mother you are and all the healing you accomplished. I will pray for you and Penny. I wish there was something that could take some of the pain away.
Aww Meg I am sorry to hear of your loss, animals have such a huge impact on our lives. Our planet would be an empty place without them. I know your hurting right now, but try to think of the good times spent with her. God brought you together because he knew you needed each other very deeply. Together you & Penny helped each other, learned some life lessons, & blessed each others lives. The times spent together in happiness, will last in your mind forever, & that is what life is really all about. I know you miss her greatly, but someday you'll see her again, in all of her glory, perfect just as God intended her to be.
Kim
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss Meg, my heart goes out to you. She sounds like she was an amazing dog and an even better friend! RIP Penny. <3
Meg,My thoughts go out to you and Penny. Even though Penny is gone, remember the love for her will always be alive in you.Artcandy
♥Robyn♥
Today is a very sad day for Megsmakeup. Penny is more than a dog and more than a memory. Penny is truely a part of Meg and will be forever. Only the fur coat is gone, because she continues to live on as long as all the Megheads understand how important a being Penny was to Meg.
Penny lived a rough life and would have been killed if it wasn't for Meg, but Penny repaid the favor over and over. She knew when Meg was sad. When the world seemed so unfair, Meg had Penny to turn to. They were always there for each other in some of the toughest moments in both of their lives.
Meg and Penny are a team. We will always hear stories about Penny. It's wierd to think of Meg without Penny. However, this dog LIVES ON with all of us that looked into Penny's eyes and felt that feeling that sounds like "maybe this dog is the smartest thing in the room?"
She was a character, unlike any dog I have ever met. And she was a blessing, and now she will rest in peace. Her body gave out and if her life continued it would be more and more painful. It was for the best, Penny could not go on. But things like this are always heart breaking. Penny, I hope that your new home is filled with all the hamburgers you can eat.
Meg, I know how hard today was for you, but you were strong and Penny is happier.
Meg,You are so incredibly strong. I am crying while I write this. It took a lot of courage to do what you did. You are a momma. An angel momma to Penny.Artcandy
♥Robyn♥
Oh sweet Meg. I am crying for you as I write this. I know what you are feeling. You did lose a family member today and your grief should reflect that. I am so very, very, sorry that you had to make this decision today. Helping your pet pass on is never easy, but it IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. It is the compassionate and gracious thing to do. I have always believed that our pets lives are so short because they are so pure and they are like live receptors for our every mood, thought and feeling. They take in so much for us and help us heal just by being themselves. Therefore, they can only do that for a relatively short amount of time. Now your precious Penny can rest and is healthy and whole once again. I really do believe that our beloved animals go to heaven. After all, they are so like God in His consuming love for each one of us. Meg, you will get through this and you will heal but in the meantime, remember, this too shall pass. (I never believe that sentiment until the crisis actually passes, it's so hard to imagine sometimes. Thankfully, your broken heart will heal.) You are one of the strongest women I know, I hope you will let others' carry some of your burden for a time. Know that you are loved, admired and respected, WE ARE HERE FOR YOU. We love you Meg!Rest In Peace Sweet Penny.
Oh baby don't worry, dogs get into heaven so much quicker than people, they are much better you know. Animals never judge us they just love love us, you did the right thing, she is happy and she loves you.
So sorry to hear of your loss. People can be so crappy, but animals are so loving and loyal. I am so thankful for each day I have with my 16 year old cat. They are always there when we need them.
Debbie
The love you express for Penny makes me cry. I guess I'm just a soft hearted person, but I'd adopt every animal that I could (if I could afford to feed them and had the time to spend time with each one). Penny is in a better place and had a GREAT MOM to spend her life with! -Animals leave paw prints in your heart...
I'm so sorry for Penny... it really hurts me when pets die because we become so attached to them. Don't worry, she's in doggy heaven now and feeling much better.
Meg, you moved me to tears. What a wonderful woman you are, being a "foster mom" for doggies, and for loving Penny and being loved by Penny. I am so sorry for your loss, and I will keep Penny in my thoughts. When my family's pets died, we were pretty devastated :(
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Having lost many a pet I send you my sincerest condolences. Ending a life is an extremely difficult decision and I applaud you for being able to do it. (I should have a punch card with my vet, I have had ferrets for 12 years) I find that cremation really helps, I feel like I know they'll always be taken care of. But, what's important is that you did the right thing. I always ask myself would I want to live like this? Then I know the right answer.
Meg, ya did good. I've never had to put a pet down before but I hope that should I need to ever do so that I can be unselfish (as you were) and let them go. This loss of a friend is devastating but they never really leave you, you know. My dog has been gone for almost two years now and I swear sometimes I see him sitting in his favorite spot by the window. I know it's rough, you never get over it, but you do get past it eventually. You and Penny are in my thoughts.
"Pets: They give so much, but ask for so little."It's been a year ago this month that our beloved 13 year old Cocker Spaniel, Taylor, went on to wait for us. After several thousand dollars and several trips over a period of one month to a specialty hospital in Georgia that was over an hour away, it was, alas, Taylor's "time." To top it off, it was a mere 3 weeks prior to my husband's return from Iraq after a 15 month deployment. I tried desperately to "make" Taylor hold on (even once having to (literally) run Taylor to the vet some 200 yards down the street to her vet because she had stopped breathing - they brought her back around) so DH could say "farewell" but her poor (unknown) diseased lungs could no longer sustain her life in any form of comfort. I too had to do "the deed." To this day, I still have not brought myself to file an insurance claim for her hospital bills. (Yes, we had health insurance on her - and I HIGHLY recommend it, by the way.) And I still can't bring myself to consider another pet as there is not an animal on this planet that could measure up to her love and loyalty (to or from her). One day . . . . one day . . . .Penny knows what you did for her, Meg. All is right in her world now and she's now gleefully haunting the sack(s) of sh!t that beat her many years ago.
Oh no! This is so sad to hear. Pets are like family, especially dogs. I'm just so glad Penny was able to find a loving home to live. I'm really sorry for your loss, but I know Penny is in a happier place now.
I couldn't fall asleep tonight and as I sometimes do, I sat down at the computer and found this. I am sobbing. I don't know exactly what a nervous breakdown is but when I lost one of my cats to cardiomyopathy, and she died in my arms, I was beyond devastated. Even though I knew there was little chance of her pulling through, I was inconsolable. The vet did his best and I knew that but Dakota was my heart. I subsequently tried to fill that void by getting as many rescue cats from shelters as I possibly could until I had way too many but I needed them as much as they needed me and even though they came with problems, I never have returned one. I also had to learn that they are not Dakota.Meg, I don't believe that words at this moment really give you the comfort that you would like. Penny lives in your heart and memories and that's what we have to go on with. Only others who feel as we do about our pets can feel one iota of the emotions that we go through on losing one. You're entitled to, and should, grieve because you've lost a family member. Time will not heal the loss but you will get through it. My thoughts are with you.
I'm so sorry for your loss Meg... It's so hard to get over the loss of a pet, especially one who has been through so much with you. I still tear up when I think about my childhood dogs that died more than 15 years ago. My heart goes out to you.
Oh Meg I'm so sorry. I'm crying as I type. I'll never forget losing the first dog who was all mine - and not a family pet. I felt like a part of my soul had been amputated. When I look at my 3 I get a lump in my throat - because I know that they are not given to us, they are loaned - and only for a short time. Never underestimate the grief you have for pets - there are no bad time, arguments, mean words to remember. There is just Love. And you just don't get that from people. Much Love to you, and I know Penny is fine where she is.Don't ever feel guilty for 'pulling the plug'. In my family, we all stand united that we will not unnecessarily prolong any life, human or animal. Twice in my life I've had to make the decision that a family member would no longer be treated. I had criticism for it, but I've never regretted either decision. I would never let my dogs suffer when I could let them go on. That is true compassion - and you are as compassionate as they come. Much Love
Rie
Dear Meg:With deep sympathy, I applaud your love for a best friend who has left her pain behind. She took on your pain, as you took on hers - with mutual unconditional love. As someone who worked at an animal hospital, just know that each euthanasia made us cry - for the animal, their owner, the enevitability of it all. But the memories remain, and will cheer you at times. Since all dogs go to heaven, you will be The Beatles once again as you are greeted at the pearly gates. In the mean time, enjoy Penny's looking after you, her spirit bright and pure - full of the love you both had and fostered to fruition.Kind regards, Barbara
Meg Im so sorry to hear about Penny. I could imagine what a hard decision it was to make but you are a very strong woman for doing so. Just think she died knowing that some people can be good, that she was loved and that she has a wonderful family.
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Oh Meg, I am so sorry. Deciding to put a dog to sleep is a gut wrencing decision: I had to make the same decision several years ago and then explain it to the kids when they came home from school. We have 3 dogs now - one of them a rescue. You did a wonderful thing by fostering and then adopting her. Together you were a family and you have lost a member of your family. You have to grieve. And while it is hard to believe, in the not too distant future you will bring another groupie into your life. We love you Meg.
You made me cry... I have a dog and I am as scared that he dies as I would a friend or a close familly member.
Aww Meg, I'm sorry you had to go through that. I truly look back at my greatest heartbreak in life occurring when my beloved dog Sparky ( a yellow lab) was hit by a car that snapped his spine. He was paralyzed from the waist down but tried to crawl off the road to me. He was horribly twisted and bloody but I ran to him and tried to hug him. My Dad looked like he was about to cry and told me to tell Sparky goodbye because I wouldn't get to see him again. He explained to me that when that happens the vert can't do anything and Sparky would be very unhappy to not be able to play and run around. He didn't go into explinations of internal injury or why Sparky was bleeding out of his ears because I was only three. After my Dad sent me inside I snuck back out to see what he was talking about. I watched my poor father, in tears, put my dog out of it's misery and bury him in our garden. I didn't talk to him for weeks because I didn't understand that he did what he had to do. Moving him was impossible without causing him intense pain. I feel bad now about "hating" my Dad for it. It must have been incredibly difficult for him to make that decision. I didn't truly love another dog like that until I was a bit older, around 8, when my Dad brought home this big, lovable rottweiler named Lucy. He got her from a co-worker who was moving and had no room for her to play outside. That dog immediately became my baby. When she had puppies (my Dad became a breeder of purebreeds shortly after we got her) she would come find me and lay her head in my lap and want to be petted during labor. She selpt with me when I was sad and would drag my sled around when it snowed. She died peacefully when I was 18. She had problems most bigger dogs face- arthritis, deteriorating joints, and difficulty chewing with muscle pain from moving her bulk around. I used to hand feed her in her last days. When she died, she came to find me, laid her head in my lap, wanted to be petted, and when to sleep never to wake back up. Animals offer so much to us in their lives. I once had a professor say "if we could bottle puppy we wouldn't need prozac". I've told my husband when we get a home of our own I want another large dog and I would like to train it to be an empathy animal to use in my treatments with my patients. The best cure for depression on the planet is a pet that you love and loves you. Bonus points for taking it on logn walks with you. I saw a sweet video once called "Dog Heaven". It was a place where dogs go after they die to run and play and be happy, and when their owner passes away, they go to people heaven with them. :)
Bravo Meg. I too adopted a little terrier after my divorce when I bought my own house. That was Oct 21, 1997. She was 2-3 years old then. Now I'm remarried and 12 years later she's still hanging on, but the end is near. She's suffered some strokes, is half-blind and mostly deaf, still has teeth though and loves her morning hot dog treat. She loves to ride in the golf cart with my husband and me around our farm, although it's hit or miss when she goes to jump in the golf cart. Most of the day she lies around in the shade sleeping. I don't think she'll make it to winter and I'm not sure I want her to have to bear the coldness. . . When she no longer wants her hotdog, I know it will be time to take her in for her needle. I want to hold her and give her a final hug. She was the smartest pet I've ever had and we will miss her. She will be buried atop the mountain overlooking our farm. We have 11 other various animals that we rescued and they are old and will die off during the next several years, but they give us great joy and we feel honored for having had them in our lives.
Meg-I am so sorry that you lost such an important member of your family. She sounded like she was wonderful. I know what a difficult thing it is to lose an animal that you love so deeply. But her companionship obviously changed you and touched you in a very deep way. I am sure that her presence in your life will always be felt in spirit. Perhaps your life together will inspire others to adopt a rescue animal. I know that if I am ever able to own a dog again a rescue is the only way that I will go. They really do bring so much joy into your life and become absolute members of your family. Again, I am so sorry for your loss.
Meg, I sent Mickey and Hampton a message to find Penny and join in some doggie fun............I can't wait to see all my babies at the bridge when I die. God Bless and hang in there.Sometime after Hampton died, I swear we could smell him in the room at times. And you know how bad he smelled! (he was a Bassett Hound.) I'm sure she's with you right now, sitting on your lap licking your tears!cindy
Oh Meg, I am so sorry. I will send you and Penny lots of healing energy...Take care.xoxoxo~Maria~
Meg, my heart goes out to you. I know what it's like to lose 4-legged members of the family.I know that she thanks you for being with her as she crossed the Rainbow Bridge.How fortunate we are to have this kind of love in our lives!
Aww, Meg! My heart aches for your loss of Penny. She was such a diva AND most definitely the smartest dog I've ever met!Kitty Pink Nose has been waiting for a partner in crime up in doggy/kitty heaven. I hope they are getting into lots of mischief up there.
Our emotional well being aboslutely affects our physical "beauty" so although it might sound like a "downer",it's very important to have a place you can vent and share or you bottle up the pain and become so full that it makes you"ugly..."THIS is what Meg's is all about to me and I offer you not only my hugs but thanks as well...you nuture and care with the best of them and I am so sorry for the loss of your dear friend.I am not an "animal" person,mostly due to severe allergies but my husband is and cried for an hour when he had to put his ancient Rotty "Duke" down last year...I think in some ways,animals DO offer what almost human can as Meg says,that unconditional love.Sending you love girl and hang on to those memories!
Aw Meg, I am very sorry for your loss. Being a pet owner is the most rewarding and frustrating job you can have. I'm not sure what I'll do if my Jack ever leaves me. Hang in there!gem that was such a sweet comment!
So sorry to hear of your lost! My heart goes out to you. You should be so proud that you give her a loving home and a great friend. It's never easy to loose a pet, they are our children. I've lost 5 dogs and 3 cats in my life time so far and each one of them was very hard. Hopefully Penny is playing with all of them right now. :) I do believe there spirit stays with us and protects us. This too shall pass! Stylemama - Well said, what a great post. I LOVE the way you think and totaly agree with you.
Wow. I knew and loved Penny and I know what Penny meant to Megan.... Megan's love for all three of her dogs was so pure and so obvious to anyone who saw her with them. Penny was ADORABLE...a little muppet. :) The life she had with Megan was such a blessed one...meg truly did save her from what I'm sure was a horrific first 7 years....I love dogs and most dogs love me and poor little Penny would never let me- or anyone really for that matter- pet her...but with Meg she was wildly affectionate and they were quite the cute couple. I told Meg yesterday that what she did was brave and courageous and a weaker person would have just let Penny stay alive and suffer to keep themselves happy...Meg chose to endure the pain of loosing her friend to make sure she was in a better place. I love you lady. Penny is being well taken care of I KNOW by other dear friends we have lost. :)
Meg, dear, if you were a Beatle to Penny, the loving home you made for her must have been the waiting room to Doggie Heaven. You must know that while she was eating your food and sleeping on her bed and going for walkies she was just waiting, probably for months and months, for you to show your true colors -- you know, the ones in shades of black. But once she realized that you only allow poodle pink in your home, you know -- to match your aura --- she must have become your biggest, trusting-est fan. No one needs to tell us that there will successors to Penny in the time to come, but right now, Penny deserves your grief and your fondest memories. And ours.
Iam sooo sorry!!! Dogs are great and amazing animals!!! <3
I'm crying my eyes out a work right now. Anyone who knows me knows I'm an even BIGGER animal nut then I am a shoe nut...and that love is really an addiction. I volunteer as a dog walker, cat socializer and Foster mom at my local SPCA. I've currently had a Mama cat (beautiful sweet Minka who just got adopted) and her 7 sweet kittens (my Sipsie is a loving angel). Today I'm going to go pick up two foster rabbits. My dogs Harley and Roxy are my babies...especially my Harley boy. He's my whole heart and I will be destroyed when he goes.I know just how you feel Meg. We put our dog Duke down 4 years ago and it almost killed my husband. We were there through the bitter end. Even the injection and it was one of the most painful times of our life. Duke was SO sweet, kind, gentle, loving, smart and a doggie gentleman. It took weeks to not cry when we thought about him.Meg honey...my heart goes out to you and I (probably more than most people) understand that our pets ARE family and for some of us our children. I love my kids and I don't by any means mean to trivialize peoples children but people who have kids and don't have that animal bond just don't get it. I bond with animals in a way I just can't explain. Especially dogs. And yes...I AM the Beatles to my dogs, and Elvis, and Madonna all mixed in one! Penny loves you.
Love, hugs and shoes...Angie
I'm so sorry Meg. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now.Losing pets is really hard - especially if they're basically you're family. I totally agree with your assessment on rescued pets. They definitely know you "saved" them. It's wonderful to be appreciated, but luckily, you can see that it was time for Penny to go. It sucks, but sometimes it's just the right thing to do.
Oh Meg so sorry. Moved me to tears & said prayer for Penny & You. I have lost two dogs, one a Keeshond named Lady..I held her as she passed and cried so hard they were worried about me at the Animal Hosp. Then we lost our Angel, a Poodle we had had for 17 years. Oh I look in the clouds every day & see them. There in my heart. I went to PetLoss.com & posted them there. It is a beautiful and comforting site and an amazing way to remember all FurBabies. I now have two male Labs and I love them so, they had been abused when pups but are so happy now. You did the right thing even though it cuts deep into your heart. I told my two in Heaven to greet her.
DIZZI
Every time i adopt a new cat and now dog, i make them promise to live forever. And like the lying scum they are, my little fuzzy masters always fail me. As i grow older i find one true thing: I can deal with me getting older, but not the people and animals i love. I look at my brothers and can't figure out why they aren't 24. I look at Bes & Xena and think these kitties can't be 18 and 12, they don't look any older, then i look at Max and Lucy and my eyes caress the grey that has crept in to their llittle pugs masks and I know my time with my babies is finite. My roomate, you will get tired of hearing about her, but more on that later, got furious with me when i wanted to use brush on temporary hair color to darken their masks. The cats are sort of perfect little snapshots they don't have any apparent signs of age, but let me tell you about Lucy and Max. Lucy was a sort of a rescue for a really bad pet store situation. My mother fell in love with her she was 1 day short of 8 weeks when we saw her first. Instant bond. My mother gave us all the reasons she didn't want a dog, couldn't have a dog, but she was home alone and very lonely and Lucy was, well, Lucy.She was very sick and almost died, but mom did everything dosing, sitting in a steamed room for hours, just everything and she refused to even consider the option offered-Return her and get another dog. She kept telling the credit card company, a dog is not a blender. To be brief, for 15 years , Lucy never spent one hour alone. Mom got Max as an adoptive friend for Lucy when she was recovering from cancer(lucy and Mom both) in 2000.Max is a goof and i fell in love immediately, He had been on the street and was a bit rough around the edges. Now, mom has passed with Alz. and both of them are ours, sort of, no one owns Lucy, but now she has doggie dementia. She isnt in pain, she just sort of does with people do, get lost, get confused and stands around staring. She eats like a pig and does everything necessary, some times a little too frequently, but i know its just a matter of time. I know how it hurts, i lost my babykitty two days after my mom died and my boy kittie 2 months later.You commit to love them, but you forget how hard it hurts when they leave.love to you and good sweet memoriesdotti
dotti, old but not dead yet, polymath still in training, makeup junkie and general overspender.
Meg, am so sorry. I am sure Penny will be welcomed into Heaven and celebrated as the incredibly special creature she is. I can't tell you how much your condolences, as well as those of all the girls, helped my family when we lost Molly and Sweetpea. I too am a big fan of rescue animals. To help heal our hearts we adopted Milo from a Lab Rescue organization. He is a one year old, Chocolate Lab and Wemereiner mix. We also have Sydney, my 16 year old Red Doberman. We got Syd as a rescue when she was three and she came with cigarette burns. I can't begin to fathom how a person could do that, but then again look at what people do to their own children. I hope your heart can begin to heal and you can treasure the wonderful memories of your times together. God bless you for fostering animals!
Indi
Awwww! Sorry for your loss.. I remember when my doggy died, so sad :'(
it is so hard when u lose your bff =( I am a pet rescuer myself so I have experienced sooooooooo many losses. I feel your pain meg. thanks for giving her such a beautiful life on this earth!
I know how that feels. All of our family dogs have always been rescued or abandoned. Our current dog, Goro (who I also grew up with), had 4 tumors around what would be his armpits i guess (2 on the left front and 2 on the back right). The vet just took them out last Friday and he's been sporting a cone since. However, he's taken a turn for the worst and is spending tonight at the vet's so he can be monitored. Hopefully things turn out well. He has quite a bit of friends in the neighborhood that will miss him.